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Inuyasha · Posted: Tue Apr 01, 2003 9:57 am Post subject: Why are people so vengeful?

You know, when life really decides to make you pay in cruel ways for the small and minor wrongs you commit through out life, you wonder why life is so important. You feel left alone, feel as it fate is there to deal you the bad hand. Existence becomes an every day of struggle to maintain happiness and a daily outlet for stress. When the curves of fate become the paths reselected for vendettas, you start to feel depressed, hampered; sucked dry. At that point, that's where I am.

I've just learned someone has undone the cruelest thing to me. One I can consider heartless and cold. My trust has been betrayed.

I think I don't know who trust. Know who to call "friend". And know who to confide certain things in. I believe I've finally found those within the mist of chaos, people who show they care, compassion and their wills to compromise, and as an end result, I get bashed down, beaten and treated to the cruelest extent. It's the only way some people know to exact revenge for vendettas. I've just fallen victim.

What to do? How to go? What's the end result? I don't know. But crying, loathing, dwelling. I've reached those points. I've reached the cross roads of 'Why does life treat us so bitterly.' Actually, why do we have to pay for the smallest mistakes we make, and for when we take our blame and repent? It makes no sense. But at this point, I feel I'm being treated as such.

What do you do when a friend betrays you? When the mask comes off and the guise is dropped? How do you take it when you've learned that someone you trusted, cared for and were ready to protect to the extent of ferocity, are you repaid with revenge, betrayal, deceit, enmity and animosity? What actions do you take when you learn you were robbed, mistreated and belittled all in the name of things people say you've committed that they call mean and cold? Even when you know you've never done such things people claim you've done that picture you as some evil, malicious person? Is there any easy road to resolve the problem?

Yes. The very has been done to me. I just learned that someone I cared for, confided in and came to call friend is the very I would have NEVER suspected to be the creator of the cruel shrine used to mock and belittle me. The same place where my stolen stories were listed. Where things I've said in the past are being used to mock and humiliate me. Never the person I would've guessed to treat me so cruelly because I was claimed to have been rude in the past and this was the only way to seek avengement. Never would I have believed such could come from the person I thought had much more in friendship for me then most. I am very hurt.

I won't name this person. Considering that I have enough decency to keep that secret. I've never held any animosity against this person, especially after some of the things this person's done in the past. But now, I don't know what to feel. I don't know if I should be angered. Pained. Hurt. Embarrassed. Let down... Taken advantage of. Of, if I should feel great abhorrence and disgust. What do you do? Where do you go?

I don't want to hate this person, yet I don't want to place any more trust. I don't want to tell things I confide in, things I want kept private from being spread to people I don't like, spread around as if it was candy. And I don't want lies about me spread like wild fire because people just want to hurt me back.

It's when people think you're treating others unfairly. But these people fail to see that they're committing the very same acts they are so adamant against. It's to the point of being hypocritical. It's to the point of making you bitter with a bad taste left behind. You begin to feel cheated and walked on. You see the sheer biasness of people and realize that you're on the side where people believe you're as just deserving being used as a puppet to amuse those seeking the revenge. When you become that type of object, you become cold and bitter yourself. Because you believe that's how everyone else thinks of you. Then people wonder why you've become so cold. It's only obvious.

I don't know exactly how I should go about this. Should I cut ties? Seek more harsh avenues to stop it? Go to great lengths to separate myself from the puppeteers? It's paining me and causing me problems knowing things like this keep on stemming from MIL and its spawn. I'm being stressed out and have gotten sick over this escapade on more then one occasion. I've even gotten worn down trying to put an end to it. All I want is enjoyment when I visit the net. To talk to my friends and have fun. Not to have all the aggravation and grief thrown at my face because people are vengeful, abhorrent and cruel. I'm looking for a way out. I need advice.
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Violet Rose · Posted: Tue Apr 01, 2003 11:19 am Post subject:

oh no...that's horrible...I know how you feel tho...I thought this one girl was my friend, many did...but then she went and faked her death, making everyone so sad...then came back and said it was her cousin or something...but we found out it ws hurt and now there are so many people on that forum hurt and betrayed...

but yet that's not the only time I've been betrayed...I've been betrayed all my life...by many people...just last week this bitch named Michelle betrayed me, making me think I could trust her and then she goes behind my back talking about me...what's funny she was saying things about me to my best freind who goes to the middle school...I bet if she knew he was my best friend she wouldnt' have done something so stupid now would she...but anyways when I get my hands on her she's dead...because I'm tired of gettign hurt...so my only way to try and stop it is to become violent...because trying to talk to the person, or to a adult, or something never works...I gotta show people who hurt me that I won't take it...

That's what you should do...either ignore the people who bother you like I do most of hte time...only reason I'm really hurting michelle is because her and her sister messed with James (my best friend) and that's a big nono..lol...anyways with thsi betraying friend of yours...maybe you should talk to him/her and ask them why they did it...that's what I would do...

Anyways that's all I have to say...hope you get this all figured out...I'm here for you if you need to talk...you know you can trust me...I think I've proved that enough times already...I hope...
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Inuyasha · Posted: Wed Apr 02, 2003 5:52 pm Post subject:

I agree. This isn't the first time this has happened. It's happened for the third. I had a best friend of 3 years betray me over my boyfriend back in highschool. She dumped our e year friensship because SHE wanted the guy I was dating. She even went to the extent to say mean things about me to get him away from me. That's not even all. I was betrayed by another friend named Joanna at one point too. That one caused a multipule argument involving more then 2 people turning on me and arising threats that they were wanting to post fliers around the school containing my personal life.

The second betrayal was the worst. It involvoed 3 friends turning on me at once. All because I didn't do things the way they wanted me to. So, they backstabbed me, threatened to post my personal life for the entire damn school to see, and wanted to spread rumors because they were pissed. Considerning that this is the 3rd time, I am deeply hurt by this recent person's actions. Friends just don't do that to each other. You cannot call talking behind someone's back, stealing from them, and making something to mock and humiliate them as being their friend. Only people who hate, dislike or despise you do things to that extend. I don't call that shrine "some harmeless poking fun". I call it rude, and cruel treatment. One only created by someone with a personal vendetta or problem with you. Only done by someone who dislikes or despises you. If he/she really cared, actually considered you *friend*, then they wouldn't do such a thing. But, trying to explain to this person it's hurtful, doesn't get me anywhere. Only excuses. Excuses like. "It's about the way you treated people--and CONTINUE to treat people!," or "You bossed little KIDS around and expected them to treat you like royalty. And when they DIDN'T, you gave them hell." Or, "you were mean to people before all this started... starting with the first people who reviewed that story on FF.Net." And many others. I don't understand where this person't getting the ideas that I'm a "sardistic" person, specially from FF, where this person claims I was rude from the start, AFTER I even received some nasty and disgusting reviews from the getgo. I still remember, "OH MY GOD PLEASE STOP WRITING!" And the review that was left by a pervert. Those were rude, nasty and mean and done within the first 5 reviews I got on one of my fics. And by the way this person is saying I got nasty from the start, was like saying I had no right to say something back to those who were rotton to me at the beginning. No. They wern't being rude, I was by how I replied to such insolance. I didn't know any of these people at the time, and yet, I had a story they didn't like and they treated me like shit.

Just the sheer hypocritical nature of certian people is what IRKS me. It just isn't right. >_<

At this point, I don't know what to do. I am considerning cutting ties as I cannot stand any more stress. Whatever people choose to believe, I litterally cried over this the other night. Cried until I could not cry any more. Cried until I fell asleep. I hut so bad. I even moped the next day at work. My stomach ached, I was depressed, and couldn't eat until very late. My supervisor was very worried. She thought wnat was done to me was wrong and cruel. She understood it hurt, but she also said I should cut my ties. She said if a person does that to you, they're no friend. Friends don't try to hurt, each other. I whole heartly, agree.

I understand your plight too, Vie. It isn't right to be treated like shit because the other party believes you were rude or mean in the past. The old saying still follows. "Two wrongs DON'T make a right." Committing an act against someone doing something you're so adament against, only makes you no better then they are. Maybe, I won't learn to trust as fast. It seems to be taken for granted very much as of late.

Don't wory Vie. I do trust you, Lei, Snapps, Crystal etc. This is the only place where I find people treating each other with respect. I just wish everyone else would outside of PR would do the same. ::Sighs::
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Violet Rose · Posted: Thu Apr 03, 2003 2:39 am Post subject:

I know how you feel Inu...I look around myself and I'm just shocked at how mean people can be...it's funny how some adults can act like children and run around stabbing each other in the back...I'm tired of seeign my freinds get hurt, I'm tired of people trying to turn me on my friends, I"m tired of peopel trying to turn my friends on me...I've lost many friends because of otehr people... but I still have friends who will stay beside me no matter what...

Anyways I'm sorry stuff like that has to happen to you...hearing that just makes me want to become even more un trustworthy because if thigns like that can happen to such a great person as you, who knows what could happen to me...ah well...sigh
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